Awkward

Try­ing to give him space…so he can fig­ure out stuff, but also don’t want to give too much space so he thinks I don’t need him at all. But it is a bit awk­ward to have loved some­one for close to 19 years…and feel like you may/may not talk to them. All I know is that it is in God’s hands and I can’t worry about it. I do not need any health issues at this point and pent up hurt and aggres­sion only hurts me. I just pray that God heals our bro­ken fam­ily, because it is a long road of unknown. How can you not end a CLOSE friendship…but you have no trou­ble end­ing a mar­riage? A friend­ship almost 2 decades. Just so confused?!?!?!?!?