“I am worn out from groan­ing; all night long I flood my bed with weep­ing and drench my couch with tears. My eyes grow weak with sor­row; they fail because of all my foes. Away from me, all you who do evil, for the LORD has heard my weep­ing. The LORD has heard my cry for mercy; the LORD accepts my prayer” (Psalm 6:6–9).

I just got this OVERWHELMING FEELING all over my body like there is more to the STORY that I don’t know.  It burns inside of me…

Some­ways I wish I knew the deep dark secrets…and other ways I know it will hurt me more!  But know now that there is more, I just know.

And that is why!

God bring me peace in this time!

It is evi­dent that the prob­lems we have have made it where a mar­riage just will not work. As I look into the future, it is not about me — we are all self­ish by nature.  What is most impor­tant through all this is bring­ing forth godly seeds…our chil­dren are what is most impor­tant.  They need to feel loved, appre­ci­ated and wor­thy.  I will do every­thing in my power to be the best mom I can be to them and let them know that they have a REALLY awe­some dad!

Thor­ough search of the scrip­tures will reveal very few bib­li­cal rea­sons for divorce, but a mul­ti­tude of rea­sons to stay in the mar­riage: to bring forth a godly seed (Malachi 2:15); to pro­vide a nur­tur­ing envi­ron­ment in which to raise chil­dren; and to love, honor, and cher­ish one another as evi­dence that mar­riage under God works; and divorce does not have to be the end result for two peo­ple who fall in love.

When the envi­ron­ment no longer includes love, honor and cher­ish­ing, not sure how it can just ever come back.  I have not been loved, I def­i­nitely have not been hon­ored.  And cher­ished, no can’t say that is there either.  I have loved him more than I ever had and that is what makes this so hard.

Our chil­dren will be fine…we are both good par­ents and want the best for them.  We will do every­thing in our might to raise them into Godly men.